...and here we are at 8 months. About once a day we realize how quickly Elizabeth will be here. This, in turn, motivates each of us in different ways. These days, Linds spends most of her time re-organizing our house, preparing the nursery, and planning; and I spend my time...assisting her ; ) . I'm not much of a worrier; I tend to take life as a day, or a project, at a time. Come on Elizabeth...I'm ready.
Monday, June 22, 2009
Thursday, June 4, 2009
true confession #29
true confession: my name is kevin...and last night I dreamed that elizabeth was already born...and that we were playing together...and that she was a boy...(no offense elizabeth...I really did and do want a girl...it was just a dream)
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
true confession #28
true confession: my name is kevin...and it kind of hurt last night when I didn't graduate at 7 o'clock
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Call me Sam Beckett
When I was a kid, I was a fan of the show "Quantum Leap" (yes, I was the one). The show follows the personal journeys of Dr. Sam Beckett, a scientist who becomes lost in time following a botched experiment. Sam 'leaps' from time to time, place to place, situation to situation, inhabiting the life of another person. He finds that he has a purpose in each experience; namely, to right a wrong.
I feel like somehow I have taken a quantum leap into a life that is not my own. I have learned from my experience, how to behave and speak as this person would; and my perspective and worldviews have expanded as result. The problem is that I have not discovered my purpose in this leap. When talking about this with my personal "Al[s]" (Dr. Beckett's sidekick/confidant/advisor), I am able to pontificate impressive rhetoric such as, "I am learning deeper purpose, or I am being shaped and taught so that I can __________". The truth is, though I have had my eyes opened to some things, I have absolutely no idea why I am here or how long I will be here. I'm not sure what wrongs I am to right...or essentially what it takes for me to leap on (or go home, as Sam wished).
I refuse to believe that I have arrived at some sort of destination in my journey. This must instead be some sort of "rest stop" (though I do not believe my purpose is to rest). There must be something that I am to do...or that God is to do through me, or in me. Maybe I am just not making myself available or aware to this purpose.
According to the almighty Wikipedia, "Dr. Beckett was developing an experiment that enabled him to connect his birth and death dates together and compress that time-line together allowing each part of his life to touch the other, thus creating an environment where he is able to time travel to any point within his lifetime." I think that it is time that I do some true reflecting. If I could only connect 'where I am coming from' and 'where I am going', maybe I could find some meaning in this point in my timeline.
There is one obstacle that I am struggling with that Sam Beckett did not have to encounter. While Sam was living in his leap, the results of his actions and behaviors only affected his 'host's life'. The results of my actions and behaviors personally affect me, my family, my relationships, my finances, and my future. There is no leap-out. So even as I focus on my 'greater purpose', I must be diligent in all of my responsibilities. Pray for me on this; especially with my job.
Call me Sam Beckett.
I feel like somehow I have taken a quantum leap into a life that is not my own. I have learned from my experience, how to behave and speak as this person would; and my perspective and worldviews have expanded as result. The problem is that I have not discovered my purpose in this leap. When talking about this with my personal "Al[s]" (Dr. Beckett's sidekick/confidant/advisor), I am able to pontificate impressive rhetoric such as, "I am learning deeper purpose, or I am being shaped and taught so that I can __________". The truth is, though I have had my eyes opened to some things, I have absolutely no idea why I am here or how long I will be here. I'm not sure what wrongs I am to right...or essentially what it takes for me to leap on (or go home, as Sam wished).
I refuse to believe that I have arrived at some sort of destination in my journey. This must instead be some sort of "rest stop" (though I do not believe my purpose is to rest). There must be something that I am to do...or that God is to do through me, or in me. Maybe I am just not making myself available or aware to this purpose.
According to the almighty Wikipedia, "Dr. Beckett was developing an experiment that enabled him to connect his birth and death dates together and compress that time-line together allowing each part of his life to touch the other, thus creating an environment where he is able to time travel to any point within his lifetime." I think that it is time that I do some true reflecting. If I could only connect 'where I am coming from' and 'where I am going', maybe I could find some meaning in this point in my timeline.
There is one obstacle that I am struggling with that Sam Beckett did not have to encounter. While Sam was living in his leap, the results of his actions and behaviors only affected his 'host's life'. The results of my actions and behaviors personally affect me, my family, my relationships, my finances, and my future. There is no leap-out. So even as I focus on my 'greater purpose', I must be diligent in all of my responsibilities. Pray for me on this; especially with my job.
Call me Sam Beckett.
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